Sunday, August 9, 2009
Lots of growth's been happening in the last few months, actually facilitated by this very blog! I started it with great excitement thinking YES! now this is what I'm meant to be doing! But as the weeks went by and I received no response on the art creativity workshops, and no comments on the posts, my excitement turned to disappointment and then depression as I experienced a crisis in life purpose. If THIS isn't "IT" then what IS??
In the subsequent weeks I've been observing my inner self and outer world and have been noticing that I have still been clinging to the idea that if I don't become SOMEBODY (who gets NOTICED) then I am NOBODY. Wow. Realizing that, I was able to let go and have come to a place of deep peace and contentment. Discovering that who I am and where I am is just perfect and that I AM somebody! ME - just as I am.
So here I am writing a new post that probably nobody will read and you know what? That's perfectly OK. In fact, it kind of makes me giggle because basically I'm talking to myself (who better to listen? heehee)
“The growth of understanding follows an ascending spiral rather than a straight line” ~ Joanna Field